It's raining cats & dogs again. It's been raining everyday since Sunday (i think). Instead of enjoying the steady rhythms of the raindrops pouring down on the roof like i always used to, today i feel extremely gloomy. Talking about heavy heart aight? My skin are screaming to get in contact with the sunshine. All i need now is a sandy beach, a book, my leopard-print shades & some suntan oil. And of coz with u by my side =/.

Went for dentist appointment this morning, it seems like my teeth are not behaving well. So many complications lah, just to do this braces of mine to make me look nicer after 1 year. Is it that hard to be pretty? I mean i'm pretty, but i want to be prettier. LOL.
And of all people, i bumped into Mr.Nathan, my Publicity & Crisis Management lecturer. A nice Indian chap lah. So surprise that he actually came over and tapped on my shoulder and say Hi to me, and shooked my hand. Which lecturer does that you tell me? So happen Mr.Nathan was about to start marking our exam papers at BangsarVillage Starbucks. I GRABBED the opportunity and told him that his questions are so difficult that more than half of the class don't know how to answer, and I also pointed out which segment has some confusion so be mercy with us if a lot of us didn't gave him the ideal answer. My paper was the first on that whole stack of exam papers! And i saw 3 ticks. So now i know if i fail or what, definitely the marks wouldn't be less than 3. HaHa. Choi!

Song playing : Babyface ft. Mariah Carey - Everytime I Close My Eyes
I am really out of words to say. What should I say or do then it's only right? I need a shoulder, lend it to me just for 5 mins. I promise.

Saw this at eunice's. I am so ashamed.
Seriously, thank you Malaysia for being so stringent.

My heart aches. Not because of me myself. My friend cried infront of me, telling me the suffer she is going through now. I don't know what to do or what to say except lending my shoulder to her. It's my first time seeing her cry.
Ree & Darry broke up. Both are my close friends. I choose not to side anyone as both have their own reasons. I just hope they made the right choice, and continue to be good, physically & mentally. God, bless them.

Ok. I am really a lomo desperado now. The urge to get 1 is getting stronger. James showed me the Holga, it is really damn good. Who wanna drop me one?

Kem Janadiri

Arrival at FRIM

Introducing us to the kids

Seems like BoonChuan didn't paid attention at all

Walking at the park

Game session - Memorizing sentence


Kids building their own tent

No, im not sleeping in there. We have our own hut =)

Gen tangle up baby

I couldn't believe when i saw this pic , Leo cooking his canai kang-kang

Sweat like pig after 1 and a half hour night walk

The 1st thing our Princess did right after the night walk. Talk about calories

By looking at these kids expression, F&B team did a great job

The next day 6.30 a.m.

Satish, the 1 that always call for Tepuk Commando

Presenting Royal Ranger's cheer song to Datuk.

This motivator scares me, he talks like he wants to fight

I am the Guardian Angel, guarded by me is Crystella

Hukuman...motivators have to do along -_-

Dead tired already during game session & Leo got my disease XD

Scoop as much water as u can with ur palm!

Trust your friend, let them carry you across that box

1 of the most important thing to bring : mosquito repellent

Disease diagnosed : open mouth disease

Indian's greeting : Ne Mes Te

Stop molesting him Reema

Our Bollywood Queen became mad woman when the strong wind blews

I became mad too

Yeah...madness

Oh-so-cliche group picture

The camp was awesome! Although it's tiring like hell, especially we as the motivators have to follow the kids everywhere and keep them hype up all the time...It's not easy job but i did enjoyed it =)

I think every dept. done a really good job. But very unfortunate, it rained during the 1st nite that we had to cancel the camp fire. I never experience b4 leh >"<. But thumbs up for the F&B team lah, still managed to cook so much foods while we were away at the jungle night walk. I kept imagining stuffs while we were walking in the jungle and scaring myself. Alot alot of fun moments with the IACT members & the kids... I'll let the picture post later tell the story lah, arm's muscle tired of typing already. Not kidding.

And i miss my baby too.

Today is the last day of College life, for Diploma. Excluding the 2 papers which will be finishing by next Friday, & also the 2 days 1 night camp building with the 30 kids as our final project, i am consider graduated, i guess? I am so gonna miss DMC01,02,03. Although competing is a bitchy thing to do, but i actually enjoyed the group competitiveness especially during Hardip's & Nathan's weekly press conference class -_- lol. We had all the kinkiest, gayest, shortest, biggest, bitchiest (in a good way) lecturers...u name it, through out this 6 semesters and i'm sure we all had fun learning from them.

There's alot of things need to be prepare for this Sunday's camp. I am one of the motivator and im kinda struggling coz we all have to speak in Malay with the kids. I don't even know how to say motivate in BM -_-. Anyways, this is my 1st time going to camp and i'm really looking forward to it. I wanna play flying fox.... Our beloved ferociousss Leo even suggested to bring "holy water" & "long-short-thing" to keep us awake for the night. U go Leo! Nvm if u don't have a clue what the heck am i talking about.

This month is such a broke month for me. I need more jobs. And i keep thinking of lomo camera today...hint hint. Nite peepz.

KL INK tattoo party.

This Friday 15/08/08 @ Maison.

I am so gonna go for this event. C ya guys, coz i know lots of you will be there as u guys have already spamming Facebook eh? *wink*

Adios~

Precious pics of 4 of us coz it's damn hard to get 4 of us together and snap a pic. =) Love u guys~!

exclude that 2 male , only me & Steph

I wonder 10 years down the road how would our life be.

Sam's 24th B'day Video

Sorry for the delay people. Finally the video is up. Once again, thanks alot =)

July 29th - The THING i was always talking about is actually a surprise b'day video for my baby. I would like to blame Murphy's Law for this, 2 person actually leaked hints and hence, it was not surprising at all on the day i showed him. I was really disappointed to the max coz it was such a failure. Time arrangement with his friends is the most difficult part, and plus i have no transport and i have class everyday with assignments piling up, all these almost drove me up the wall. No wonder my period came earlier LOL. Nevertheless, all the hard works are worth it when you see a smile on someone face. But i think it would be better if I see tears of joy. I tried to upload the b'day video, but i can't somebody teach me.

Baby, now that you are 1 year older, be prepare that there will be more expectations & responsibilites on you. And i'm very glad that you are willing to change your bad temper =). God answered my prayer.

July 30th - Stephanie Chin's 20th b'day. We celebrated at Maison because our Miss Cow here has never been to club before. No worries, now you had your 1st time, there will be more to come. But make sure no more Bollywood Drama! Don't gulp it down lah, drink at your own pace darling. I don't know whether you rmb asking me this question that night :

"What happened to 4 of us? Why is always 3 of you and i'm so left out? Will you guys miss me after i go back to US?"

Nth happened to 4 of us, you feel left out that time b'coz you were so attached with your relationship that you neglected us in a way that you yourself didn't noticed. No hard feelings babe. The next thing you should do is learn how to balance yourself between friend & bf. The previous 4 years was not a waste of time, it was just another path that you have to take in order to grow. And yes, we will miss you b'coz we have always missed you when you were gone. =)


Ooh, and today Ashley actually dropped her bf to work and drove home alone! So proud of myself! And last but not least, thank you to all who had contributed to the b'day video,.

I call today as the Team Fierce's Laughter Day. Not to say like we don't laugh enough at other days, but today is extra laughter. First we got our very Fierce member Reema making a fool out of herself on FlyFm. Apparently Sebastian knows the DJ of HitzFm & FlyFm. First, he got Reema to make a dedication on HitzFm, then on FlyFm as well.

" I want to make a shoutout to members of Team Fierce - Niki, Leo, Steph & Ashley. Do you have Pussycat Dolls - When I Grow Up? "
Then our tangachi being the songstress, started singing ~ when i grow up, i wanna be famous, i wanna have BOOBIES ~

"Girl, I think it's ~ i wanna have GROUPIES, not BOOBIES" said the DJ of FlyFm.

Talk about embarrasing moment man. Lucky thing it's not on-air live Reema. Yeah, and of coz we all had a good laugh at her.

Then we had BollyWood session in class, all thanks to me bringing the scarf to college today. I was trying to be Reema's Indian mother-in-law.

3 more days! I only have another 72 hours to complete THE thing. God please give me more time, or atleast make the time pass slower -_-. Now i understand my DaDa's feeling when she did that for me. Appreciate it lah. Can't sleep well these 2 night. Really stress about THE thing, plus I have 3 assignments due in 2 weeks time. This is driving me crazy. Damn regret that i started so late lah, procrastination kills.

I overslept again this morning. Lucky thing it was not Miss V's class. Last night i was talking to Reema about college blues, so gonna miss all the bitchy-ness & blondeness we had together. I just hope our friendship like what Reema said would be too strong to be discard. Anyway, we might be going to Lang Tengah for our graduation trip. Cross finger that everything will works out well.

Some people just don't know how to appreciate what others did for them. And there are some people that just would thank you for even the smallest / easiest things you've done that makes you feel so much appreciated. Whatever the time or energy spent on doing those things just make it so much worth it.

I'm not saying that people expect something back from you when you do something for somebody, but a simple thank-you won't kill much of your saliva i think? Why does one always have to be so harsh on words? It really makes you feel better and greater when your words are piercing through other people?

I feel so stupid now. And tired. It's not a good sign.

My baby got his tongue pierced. And on the same night we attended Sh!tDisco vs. LapSap @ Zouk. That night was fucking awesome. M'sia's clubbing scene really need more new Djs, unconventional one of course.

Recently been spending quite some times to accompany one of my friend. Poor girl has changed from a happy person to a depressed one. My heart aches everytime i see her bruises all over her own body. Love can really transform someone. From a gloomy person to a cheerful person, and in this case, it's vice versa. I know you won't be reading this, but i just want to let u know that it doesn't worth it at all to hurt yourself for a guy. Think about your friends & your family members, you are hurting them and hurting yourself at the same time. I pray that you will soon recover from this incident, and always rmb that I still love you, like what you told me before. =)

There's been a lot of stuffs spinning in my head these few days, so much stuffs yet so little time. I need a direction.

Went to PD for a weekend with my baby, Alice & Darry. It feels so nice to get out from the hustle bustle of the city and enjoy the oh-not-so-clean beach -_-. Better than nth right? Atleast i got my long-awaited sun-tan session finally. Poor Darry & Sam just couldn't get tan, sometimes it's not that good to be born darn fair teeheehee. Tan skin is in the trend now okay. People would have thought 4 of us are crazy, sitting under the sun while others hiding under the shades.

I guess you should be smart enuff to know what game is this.

Photoshop makes wonders.


Hou yao feel =)


Photoshop really does wonders!


HArdcore huh?

My first tattoo

Mummy holding a baby - in remembrance of my mum.

Finally i got my belated Valentines' present last Monday. Poor Nicole & Sam's hand was half crushed by me during that 4 hour process. Don't worry Nicole, the next time u do i'll let u crush mine too, but i doubt you'll need me. And yeah i didn't forget U, the next time u do i'll teman you as also. Fair & square.

It's very very itchy now, skin's peeling. Will be all good within this 2-3 days. It's still quite hard to believe that i actually did this fucking big size tattoo for a noobie, and i'm damn proud of myself LOL. I actually wanted it to be as big as my palm, but the design came out twice the size i wanted. Oh what the hell, i liked it that's all that matters.

Met up with Shih Mun & the others @ Italiannies the other day. He's leaving to Melbourne U. A young mature buddy of mine since primary school. Alot of girls used to have a crush on him, including me if i'm not wrong. LOL. Our lan-si small gas Melvin Moh came too, he actually turned out to be friendlier this time. I used to think he is nth but a cocky racer racing all over the countries, he's changed. Everytime driving the latest BMW models, ahhh how lucky! Was really nice chilling out with all this old buddies, afterall we've been friends for more than 10 years. I feel so bad infront of them coz i'm the only that changes the most? They're all so goody goody lah. It's okay, atleast i'm not consuming drugs & putting out fires. I'm trying to live as good as i can =)

It doesn't matter if i don't have a perfect family. I'm still going on the right track, and prioritizing my studies & future. So positive right? I bet you can't find someone as positive as me LOL. The only bad thing is I don't have someone to fall back when i need to make decisions. Yes, friends are out there giving opinions, but the decision maker is always me myself. I'm so scared of making BIG decisions sometimes. Speaking about this, there's a big decision to be made after i graduate at this August. To continue pursuing a degree? To work? Where? God please give me a sign.

Brought QQ to AhSou's place for grooming. It's like a doggy gathering when u have 6 dogs together at 1 house. Somehow we started talking about Christianity. AhSou started going to church last year Sep and baptised on 23rd Dec without telling her husband. She only tells him the next day and they argued over it, but she got a necklace with cross as X'mas present from him, hidden under her pillow. This is how great our God is, within 24 hours transform a person from reluctant to acceptance. It's like when the first time i found out Sam actually prays i was really happy. It's really a big step forward.

That 3 weeks of hospitalization was really a tough time, not only for him, but for me & his families as well, physical, emotional & mental especially. I don't know what i can do more to help him except giving him moral support & try to assist him in anyway i can within my boundaries. Every night i pray that this incident somehow in a way will change him for good and learn how to appreciate life.

Alice told me something very meaningful just now :
" You need to learn how to appreciate yourself if you want others to appreciate you."

I totally agree with her. Give other people a valid reason for loving you by appreciating yourself first, nobody appreciates rubbish. This includes putting down your ego & pride and stop telling people " this is who I am, I've been like this since I'm born ", instead try telling yourself " I'm not what I am, I can change for the better ". Trust me, you'll earn more respect when you dare to admit your weakness because not many can do that, it takes alot of guts.

We are officially 6months already last Sunday. Time really flies. Didn't celebrated it coz he was darn sick and i had to take care of him. To make it up, he brought me to this Fun Fair at Bukit Jalil without letting me know.

"Where u bringing me?"
"You'll know. It's somewhere we've been together but this time at different location."

This year's CNY we went to one at Ipoh. It sux big time.

Honestly, i've never done this with any of my ex-es before. I used to think it's stupid lah =p. So yeah, it's my first time sitting on a bumper car. Fell in love with it already. Didn't play much coz he still haven't fully recovered from all the operations but we did went on the ferris wheel though.

"There's a saying that when a couple is at the highest point at the sky and if they kiss each other, they will be happy forever. " And he kissed me.

WAHAHAHAH ok i know i sound damn blonde now, and i'm not that kind of girl that likes this kind of romantic stuffs...but once in a while, i don't mind lah! I know that's all bullshit actually, but white lies does no harm. =D

If to describe my feeling now, it is like Mariah Carey's - DreamLover. =)

Thank you Baby.

7th June 08 was the day Cindy & Andy tied their knot at the Palace Beach & Spa. It's actually Niki's 3rd sister, and me being the 5-quarter sister was one of the jimuis. It was such a tiring day, from 8a.m. till 11p.m. Ah 3 was so grumpy that day lah, i understood that it's her big day and she wants everything to be perfect. But me being the bride's butler is so scary, i'm alwiz worrying when Ah 3 is going to fire me LOL. I really like the wedding ceremony at the beach side. It was going to rain but it didn't, i heard ppl were praying very hard for Cindy & Andy. Praise the Lord =) I'm going to upload a few pics 1st, the others need to wait for the photographer, which appears to be our dear Stephanie Chai Pei Tze's friend.

Me Ah4 LiWei

LiWei Niki & Me (the three 5th sisters)

Just came back from movie, The Incredible Hulk. I'd give 3/5 stars.